reality check

current bankroll : under $3,000

Where do i begin... this week has been nothing but sick beats. In no way can i win a hand where I am an 85% + favorite to win. And after some bad bankroll management and bad self discipline... I'm sitting on top of a bankroll that could have been salvaged dramatically.

I didn't listen to my own advice about dropping down to .05/.10 nl to regain my confidence before jumping back up into my regular game. Instead I jumped in the .50/$1 nl 6 max games where I then proceeded to lose over $500 in 3 days. Don't get me wrong, I mean I am not even tilting my money away. Instead I have been losing to bad beat after bad beat... after bad beat. I'm surprised actually that I haven't lost more considering how the cards have been falling. After all of the BS, I am still at least playing a B+ game.

So i don't know what do now... I withdrew all of my funds from all of the sites I play at the most (party, stars, fulltilt, and ultimatebet. All sites together that have been screwing me over).

I should take a break, but I don't feel that is really the problem, Everyday I come in ready to play poker 110% with the mindset that im going to win and play my best. I guess i just need to be really disciplined and stick to the limits that I suggested. .05/.10 nl, and $20 sng's. I really need to relax and not get too ahead of myself whenever the tide starts getting rough, and I think i'll be fine.

alright, well... until next time... peace out

it's official, im running bad again

getting hit by coolers, one uppers, rivered 2 outers, 3 outers, 4 outers, any outers, and I can't hit a dam good draw worth 20 freaking outs...

my bankroll was almost up to 7k a week ago, im below 5k right now

I just came back from an almost 2 week break, do i need to take another one already?

man this is irritating

guess im gonna drop down and play some .05/.10 nl and $20 sng's till i can regain my confidence back...

one last time before I leave

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can't close out MTT"s

Another 6 hours of grinding out an MTT, and only another dissapointing finish with a weak cash to show for it. I don't know whats going on, I feel like I am playing the best I can, but nothing seems to work for my end game play. I go in with a huge chiplead on my table and somehow manage to lose it all within minutes and send myself to the rail.

I played in a 11 rebuy on stars and finished in 20th place out of 300 something. Last week, i took 18th out of 1400 something in the stars 55k gtd, and 13th out of 300 some on an fulltilt $75 MTT.

I hate to bitch and moan, but these finishes and beats are hard to swallow. I can almost see, touch, and smell that big first prize cash going into the final 2/3 tables. only to have it stripped away from me.

I know I am playing great and the big one is just around the corner, but I guess for now... I'll keep my game sharp and wait till the cards and/or Lee Jones decides its time for me to take a big one down. I just hope its soon, I could really use the money so I can get off of the rock

peace out

Aloha

whats crackin all? Welcome to my new blog

I guess ill start off with an introduction of myselft. Name's Dominic, 22 years old, and i'm living in Oahu, Hawaii where I was born and raised. Though I love my home and my family, the time has come for me to grow up and learn some responsibility, I plan to move out of Hawaii (out of parents house) by the end of september and move out to L.A., California. This laid back lifestyle isn't working for me at the moment, I need something a little more upbeat and always moving. I think L.A. will fit those needs just right

I have been playing poker for almost 2 years now, and for the most part... winning consistently. i started off with a mere $150 bankroll back when i started to play online poker, I have since increased that bankroll to just under 7k to date, while cashing out over 10k for personal reasons.

well, I guess thats enough to get this blog started and rolling. i'll try to keep it up to date and I hope you like my blog

peace out,
bigchipshi a.k.a. stylinhawyn